Just thinking about it makes me want to just crawl and ball up.
I’m not ready. At all.
This week has shown me that…no matter what I do, no matter what I show myself to be or who I try to be. I will never be good enough for myself. It’s constant struggle between making myself happy and making others happy. Comfortingly enough, making others happy has always and probably will always come out on top.
This week…has made me realize I really need to step back and think about everything.
And I know that thinking is going to take the biggest toll on me.
It is what it is. Maybe it’s time I gave up and stop trying so hard. ( Ha. Yeah right, like that’s even possible. I don’t know anything else. )
Here’s to a rainy Friday.